5dp3dt, and I don't even know if I'll bother to POAS at all. I'm sick of the PIO. I'm having crazy dreams, emotions are getting to me (anger more than sadness) and I am craving junk food. I just want next weekend to come so I can start to clear my system of all this crap.
I guess I'll POAS Fri. morning before I go in for the beta blood-draw, just to ensure that any residual hope I may be harboring deep down is fully nixed before I get that phone call while at work.
I feel like this 2nd attempt was a complete waste of time and energy. But, I can't take it back now.
I'm reading an adoption book. I'm overwhelmed; however, I feel like I'll be ready to tackle that process in the new year, after I've had a chance to feel like myself again for a bit. I hope I can get DH on the same page by then.
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